we had our department summer outing cum teambuilding in Batangas today … my first since i became part of the "management"! ;=) haha … it was really no big a deal … whether i’m "management" or not … maybe i just got more panic attacks to be in my better behavior — you know pretend to listen and participate and speak my mind (and be a promil kid — peace, Sherwin! ;=)! But again, as i found out afterwards … there was really no difference! i was still trying to confuse the other group in one of the activities so my team will win! and i’m still coming up with uncalled for side comments! (well, they’re funny … and a lot of people are doing it … and … ! ;=) it made me think actually … should i really change who i am just because my roles in life are changing (or just because i’m aging! ;=) ? or can i switch back and forth depending on what the situation calls for? is it lying to myself to take on behaviors and personalities needed by certain people and situations? how far do you go to be flexible (or in DISC lingo — adaptable?) i took the Language of DISC training couple of days back … and discovered … (actually, it affirmed my suspicions … ) that i’m an ‘I’ person — Influencing! (the symbol to describe ‘I’ people is a party scene … which i find really ironic … since i really don’t party … much more a lot! i have a really pathetic social life … which will become even more so now that i’m going back to my MBA … and have a saturday AM class!!) Part of the DISC training was to gauge the stress level on how people adapts … i got "extreme" stress rating! i really don’t know what that means since i really don’t feel the "extreme" stress … but maybe it’s something i’ve lived with for the longest time that i don’t notice it anymore … but a trained eye … or a really good computer program … can see it! maybe i’m just not born to be a super-functional and efficient, detached person that gets the work done! i’m all for relationships … and being personal … and being touchy-feely to a certain level … don’t get me wrong … i get the work done (i should … it’s my 10th year in Intel! — er, i started when i was 15! i was a promil kid after all! ;=) kidding!) … but just not in a straightforward unfeeling sort of way! i get attached and i get emotional! oh well … i guess the key is to strike a balance on how much emotion you put in … and how much of oneself you adjust but never forgetting for one second who you are and what you’re made of! i guess even in Intel (or should i say, more so in Intel), ‘I’ people are needed … not just to balance an otherwise dog-eat-dog world … but to infuse humanity and heart in what we do … to personalize an otherwise detached and purely functional world … or if all else fail, to be a comic relief giving uncalled for side comments in summer outings and teambuildings! ;=)
