random thoughts

I really should start rating my people … this focal thing is really draining me … emotionally! L I have put off doing this for the last two days and I cannot put it off any longer since my deadline’s tomorrow! We have a tall order to make it happen … yeah, on top of all the issues I have on my latest (and greatest) product … I have to deal with this. Why the hell did I really sign up for this job?! Haay … don’t get me wrong … I love what I do … for the most part … except those times that I have to deal with corrections and reprimands and disciplinary action … (the word seems overused lately!!!) … I am a people person and I am all about relationships … I think I have explained that in one of my other previous blogs … I know, I know … I have to be a bitch at times (for lack of a better word … er, I think I am already L) if the situation calls for it … I have to be candid (brutally honest!) in giving straight and strong messages! … this week is really frustrating, tiring … really stretching me to my limits … how I wish everyone can just go home happy … with an outstanding and exceed expectations rating! I wish everyone can just be promoted and everyone gets 20% minimum increase in their salary! Yeah … I wish! … and I guess I can just go on wishing … (hmmm … is there a company out there that do this? ;=) hehe

I’m not even sure if I’m supposed to be writing this … knowing that a lot of the people who reports to me read my blogs …(my less and less frequent blogs … ) … oh well … so let me end in a light note … let me end with something really inspirational that will make those people having second thoughts about staying stay … let me end with powerful wisdom so that people will have their faith and loyalty back to the company … let me exhort people that where we are currently is but a challenge that … together we can overcome (the Tagalog translation sounds awfully familiar!!!) … so here goes … … … … … … … … … … er … er … er … er … <silence> … … … … <another long silence> … … … … <gives up> … ;=) hehe just kidding! ;=) call me a sentimental fool (or just a plain fool!) but I still love my job and the people in it (yes, without travel and with barely-meeting-the-ends-meet salary). yes, the group is in dire need of a major morale boost … and we need an inspiration … (I need an inspiration … but that’s another blog altogether!) I hoped that I would be that inspiration … in my own small way … I’m still hoping, BTW (and I really think it’s part of my life mission)… maybe one of these days I’ll figure it out … when I’m not too harassed and barely breathing with all the issues I need to work through … maybe one of these days, I will just ooze with enthusiasm about my job that I will just affect people immeasurably … yeah … maybe one of these days … when I get my 30% salary increase and my gas allowance … yeah, that will be the day! ;=)