random thoughts

              Hmmm … i’ve been meaning to tell you something … for a while now in fact! but i just didn’t have the guts to say it! I was hoping i won’t have to tell you … i was hoping you will feel it and probably do something — subtle hints, right? — but since many days … ah, weeks … passed … and you haven’t really said anything and you still go with your ‘casual’ ways … is really convincing me that this is a lost cause … you’re a lost cause! … and like a true greg behrendt disciple that i am … i get the message … loud and clear! ;=) i should throw in the towel and give a good fold … ahhh … this is my good fold!

              You asked me twice before, rather offhandedly, who the number 1 was … and i think i didn’t give you a straight answer … I totally evaded the question … and thank God for the darkness … it didn’t show whether i was fumbling or blushing … (ahhh … i don’t know if i was capable of blushing … ;=) … and you were dropping guys’ names asking me if i had a crush on them … and i answered your questions … every single one of them … but you forgot one guy … you forgot you! It’s you! You’re it! You’re #1! I actually don’t know if you were just dense or just playing stupid … but you had all the hints! i guess not doing anything is a sign of disinterest … and again … i get the picture! ;=) hmmm … on second thought, maybe i didn’t give the hints right … but no time to recoup that now! ;=) hehe

              well … that wasn’t so hard! … all those days … ah, weeks … of analyzing and wondering … it wasn’t so hard! … of course, writing them down wasn’t … but since you’re reading this … (ah, hopefully, you are in fact reading this …) i passed the last hurdle … of actually posting it! ;=) This is by far the most unconservative thing i did in all of my 31 years in this planet! The closest one prior to this was inserting cryptic messages … which the guy … if he’s smart enough … will probably figure out … hmmm … this is as cryptic as it can get! And if my memory serves me right … this should be comprehensible to only seven people … you included! ;=)

              so there … ;=)