“now you know … use that information for whatever purpose it will serve you best …”
Got this SMS message from Allan … and it’s so ahhh … appropriate?! ;=) i really don’t put any canned quotes in my blog … but i will make an exception this time … here goes:
… implications of a terrible disease called pride …
- you always don’t want to be the first to do the step to be with someone
- you always try to hide your feelings
- you don’t want others to know that you’re hurt
- you’re afraid of telling someone he/she is special
- you’re afraid of losing someone but afraid to show it
- you’re so aware of what others think that you can’t do what you want
- you’re not happy
- in the end, you lose everything without even trying to have it
hmmm … no time to tell the story on why it’s appropriate … and no guts to actually do what it says … well, no guts … yet! ;=) when is a good time though? for me, i am waiting for that time when i can say it without any expectations … without any response required … i was telling Van (and Karen … and Liza … and … hehe) that when i actually admit to someone (okay, a guy) that i like him, i want it to go like this … "now you know … use that information for whatever purpose it will serve you best …" ;=) hehe … true it will be the coldest, most unromantic way of telling someone you like him … but it will be the safest … the one which will hurt the least … and the one fully buffered for possible rejection! … but come to think of it … when that time comes that i am in that state of mind and can actually say those lines … i probably feel less for the guy already anyways … so why bother, right?! ;=) oh well, i guess there’s really no safe, rejection-free way of telling someone you like him … there’s always the risk of being hurt and being rejected in love … and that’s being negative about it … but what if it’s the other way around? … ha! i guess pure joy doesn’t even begin to describe it … ;=)
