random thoughts

I should be fast asleep by now. I woke up at 2am yesterday to catch up on some work backlog and didn’t go back to sleep anymore … so I’ve been awake for almost 24 hours now as I write this — with maybe some much-coveted power naps throughout the day! I also had a good round of badminton earlier today … played 7 (or maybe games … so I should be dead tired by now, right? ;=) wrong … I can actually force myself to sleep … I never really had any difficulty sleeping … I am one of those people who can sleep anywhere and anytime (and any position! … my classic sleeping story is how I sleep while standing in the bus during my long-gone college days!) So what is haunting me right now forcing me to a night of unintentional vigil?

… maybe it’s because I am thinking of someone, friends who left whom I dearly miss?

… maybe it’s the excitement for the coming weekend? … two of my friends are getting married, one flew all the way from San Jose, CA to get married here and the other one is a really close guy friend (fine, it’s Erick!) ;=) … weird thing is, I was so looking forward to their weddings … only to learn about two weeks back … that they’re getting married on the same day … at the same time!!! … one in Las Pinas, the other in QC! I am not about to do what Jane (in 27 dresses) did where she multi-attend (!) a wedding, shuffling back and forth to two weddings on the same night … yeah, I won’t be crazy to do that since for one, I won’t be taking a cab and as bad as the traffic in Manila is, I will probably be only able to afford one trip from Las Pinas to QC and both weddings will be over!) My brilliant plan: I will attend Erick (and Joy)’s first and then leave for QC! ;=) hahaha yeah, brilliance in the simplicity of it all!!! And did I mention that the DLSU GSB (Graduate School of Business) Night is happening on that night also? That once-a-year DLSU GSB event which in all my 7 (!) years of trying to finish my MBA, i have attended only once … and which I think will be my last since I will graduate this year already (I wish!) … yeah, that one and I really want to attend it! Should be a great night to network … ;=) I was telling my friend that I usually have boring, stay-at-home Saturday nights — talk about non-existent social life — but this weekend will be a taste of how it is to actually have a life! hehe

— maybe it’s my anxiety over the longer-term future? I’ve been very vocal of late that I plan to resign … soon … though that has been one moving target since last year! But I think this is the year … this is the year where I will (finally!) leave my comfort zone and try something new! At 32 years old, that’s pretty scary … exciting scary! Scarier though is the fact that even up to now, I really don’t know what I really, really want to do yet! … I have … er … options! ;=) (BTW, marriage is one of the options! Hahaha … like I can do it on my own volition — no dependency on anything whatsoever … )

… hmmm … or maybe it’s the (really!) bad videoke singing (at 2am!) in the house across the street! They started around 5 hours ago and just won’t quit yet! Music is supposed to lull people to sleep but theirs just do not have that same effect on me! ;=) hehehe Yeah, that’s it! ;=)

oh well, only good thing from this? i have updated my blog — went two months without any updates — for a trying hard, addict blogger wannabe, that’s pretty long! ;=)