random thoughts

I survived another term of MBA … a grueling one at that … with 3 refresher subjects with a paper each, one elective and one basic subject (which I left behind, not entirely due to pure ignorance … part of it was denial … J). I’ve proven time and again that I’m not a good crammer … yup, I’m not good … I’m great! J hehehe I am not really proud of the fact, it’s too juvenile, too college  (is there such a word?!) … by now, I should have the discipline and the internal motivation and drive to accomplish things! By now, I shouldn’t be fazed by deadlines and I should be structured enough in my learning methods that I can plan beforehand and finish way before deadline … J yeah … I should have … and for all intents and purposes, I did try … and attempted several times … but I always fall into the trap under the (valid!) excuse of being too busy at work! … well, come to think of it, I’m actually busy at work … and not just work, I have to juggle through community, family, work, personal commitments … it’s a good thing I don’t have a boyfriend (hmmm … it’s a good thing?!) else, he’ll be sorely taken for granted! <haha, like I have a choice on the matter!> hmmm … part of the personal commitments I had towards the finals week was my preoccupation with the Korean soap opera Princess Hours (Goong) … J hahaha

Anyways, I guess no matter how much I beat myself up for still not being disciplined enough not to cram … the important thing I guess is I passed all of my subjects! I didn’t have any refresher paper for revision … which means it was satisfactory (it was good!) the time I submitted it … (hmmm … refresher papers can get revised and my motto during those times I was really cramming … was I will submit a not-so-good-quality paper and will just revise it afterwards … yup, that was my goal … but I didn’t get any paper for revision!!! God, I’m good! J hahahahaha I actually did one paper for 8 hours … yup, 8 solid hours … before the deadline – I took the day off … shut myself out from the world and worked on my paper! The deadline was 12mn … (it’s online submission) … I submitted 12:01am … I’m not even a buzzer beater … I was a minute late! J I’m not totally taking credit and claiming genius status … J I had my ideas in my head … I knew what to write about and how to tackle it … was doing mental paper writing in the 10 days given to us … hmmm, I guess I’m not totally lazy and irresponsible, right? J … the lack of discipline was in the actual typing and writing it down on paper! J anyways, I guess 1^st trim SY 2008-2009 is history and though proud of passing all my subjects … i am taking away one valuable lesson from the experience again … and that is i really should work on personal discipline … and it’s not just in my MBA subjects but in all areas of my life for that matter … it was a good thing I didn’t fail … (I was telling myself I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself if I flunked any subject because of Princess Hours … J

I am enrolled again this term … i’m taking the 1^st of the last two integrating courses I have before the OCE (oral comprehensive exam) … and after OCE is graduation! I am at the homestretch … it was a long journey … a 5-year journey and I can see the end already … still hazy … hmmm … very hazy but it’s there! To say that I learned a lot is an understatement … although I think I appreciate MBA better now that I am seeing the pieces coming into place together … I still don’t know whether this will be my next career … but I know that it gave me better insight into how businesses are ran and the management thought process! (hmmm … reading it now, it sounded too simple … I needed 5 years to learn that?! J hehehe  I don’t know how to explain it really … maybe I will find more suited words when I do finish with Strama and OCE … and when I do graduate! J … yeah, i think i will have better, deeper, more highfaluting insights by then … hmmm … that will be my Sept’09 blog! J hehe