moving on ;)
Moving on … I hear this a lot lately … I claim and say this a lot lately — that i have moved on! 
the weird part is, it’s been three years since i was in something that resembles a relationship — I am not talking about him, BTW, that part of my life is way over! — I’m talking about some other kind of moving on! 
hehe … i am talking about moving on from a deluded, make-believe hope-against-hope fantasy — er … if there’s such a thing!
hmmm … how do you move on from something that wasn’t there in the first place? how do you move on from a conjured, made-up romance?!
have you moved on if some other new person fills your mind now? if you can talk openly about previously taboo topics with him? if the idea of him ending up with someone else doesn’t hurt you anymore … doesn’t subject you in so much self-induced misplaced pain anymore? if the mere sight of his name announcing that he’s logged in in YM is not making your heart beat faster anymore? if chatting with him, or the absence thereof, do not consume you so much anymore? that you don’t count the days since you last talked? and you don’t go back to the message archive to savor the last conversations you’ve had?
hmmm … if this is moving on then i guess i’m well on my way … give or take … another year?! hehe hmmm … i should reread Greg Behrendt ‘He’s Just Not That Into You’ book … that should speed things up some more!
